I've never been the girl who had a lot of friends. In fact, I've been gradually losing the few I did have over the past few years.
At the stage in my life where it's getting more and more difficult to make new friends, I'm finding myself alone more often than not. It's times like these that I reminisce, that I mourn the friendships that are gone because one or both of us gave up or truly grew apart.
On lonely nights (let's be honest, tonight is one of them), I sit and wish I had someone to call. Someone to jump in the car and drive to Grand Haven with completely on a whim. At the very least, someone to make future plans with, knowing that I may be alone tonight, but I am not alone. Lunch dates and weekend getaways would do wonders for my heart and soul. Knowing that we may not have all the time in the world like we used to, but we've still got each other. We'll still pick up right where we left off, as soon as we get the chance.
I often replay events of friendships. Could I have done things differently, could I have done more. Should I have done less. As my friends spread out across the country, how could I have kept them close? What about the friends that didn't move away, but so much got in the way between us that it felt like we were thousands of miles apart?
This post will be dedicated to all of my friends, past and present. Wherever you are in your life, I hope you are loved. I hope you are not sitting alone tonight, wishing you had someone to talk to.
